the wait is over.
i am thankful for that.
we had an ultrasound yesterday and i have a blighted ovum.
{you can read what that is here.}
there is no baby on the way.
although, i pleaded, begged, and cried out to God for life,
He is still good and He is still faithful.
i believe and rest in that.
i still love my God.
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i waited in uncertainty for ten days.
ten days back and forth... maybe i am?!
maybe i'm not...
ten days of God being my strength when i was so weak.
ten days of pregnancy symptoms on and off.
ten days without my mommy to talk to (she was in Jerusalem... legit).
in ten days i found out three more women in my life are pregnant.
ten days of praising God while being thrown into a refining fire.
but only nine days of tears.
at the "eleventh hour," God reminded jeff and i of our biggest desire.
more than having a baby, we want Jesus Christ to be known, loved, and worshiped by all people.
we have a huge... i mean a huge heart for international missions.
after all, that is how God brought us together. :)
so my prayer changed a little yesterday morning...
as God laid this verse on my heart
But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.-Matthew 6:33
i prayed for His kingdom.
i told him that we wanted to be used for the expansion of His kingdom.
and whatever brought Him more fame, baby or no baby, i was okay with.
and i meant it.
He changed the desires of my heart, so on the day of the ultrasound (before and after)...
no tears.
(To my surprise!)
He answered when i called!!
now jeff and i are answering the call...
we're starting on the journeyman application (which is a 2-3 yr long mission trip overseas)!!
we couldn't be more excited about this.
but continue to keep us in your prayers!
i pray that you are challenged, encouraged, and spurred on by our story.
"Sing, O barren one, who did not bear;
break forth into singing and cry aloud,you who have not been in labor!For the childrenof the desolate one will be more..."
says the LORD.
Isaiah 54:1
Brigette, im so sorry to hear that, but glad to hear that you're doing good! God has a great plan for you two!
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you. With God we can handle anything. With God, whatever has happened in the past need not destroy us. Of course we'll face an many times reap the consequences of the past. But for the child of God there is hope. God is God, the God of all hope. No matter what has happened in our backgrounds, with God there is grace, peace, and hope if we'll run to Him and bring every past disspointment captive to faith in His Word.
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