nobody knew you...

"nobody knew you...

"Sorry about the miscarriage dear, but you couldn't have been very far along."

... existed.

nobody knew you...

"It's not as though you lost an actual person."

... were real.

nobody knew you...

"Well it probably wasn't a viable fetus. It's all for the best."

...were perfect.

nobody knew you...

"You can always have another!"

... were unique.

nobody knew you...

but me.

and i will always love and remember... you."

-Jan Crosby

Pregnancy Began: 9.11.11
Date of Expected Delivery: 6.16.12
Miscarried on: 12.1.11

today I am naming my baby.

thanks to the book a friend recommended

who is going through the same situation right now.

she also sent me this link on how to be supportive of anyone

Isaiah 49:1 "The Lord called me from the womb, from the body of my mother He named my name."

my baby's name is kai.

kai means "and" in Greek 

(my classical language-loving husband told me so).

it's perfect.

i had a miscarriage...

and God is faithful. and God is sovereign.

and God is holding me.

and one day... because of Jesus Christ,

my God and Savior, i'll meet my sweet baby, Kai!