one month.

As I write this, I'm leaning back against the arm rest of our couch with my doll sleeping ever so peacefully on top of me. Pure bliss. Gosh, I love her.

Paci or no paci. Breast fed or bottle fed. Let her cry it out or not. So many decisions! It has taken a whole month to finally get a teeny bit of confidence in being a momma. Each day a little more adjusted and comfortable with my new normal. We had some rough, emotional days. But I think my hormones are back to normal-ish and I've enjoyed her and my new role more and more.

I thought I would be sad about her turning one month, but I 'm not. I really just want to play and laugh with her! Trying to cherish and not to wish these days away though. 

A quick prayer request: getting back in the Word and prioritizing my time with Jesus above all. We just don't have a set schedule yet. These days taking a shower seems more refreshing, so its the first thing I do. And then during her next nap I pick up around the house. Next, exercise. Those are my priorities. It's been a smooth morning if I get food in me by noon. Feeding myself physically and, most importantly, spiritually have not been at the top of my to-dos. Pray for my heart. Love you all! And love you all loving my baby girl.